Wednesday, June 17, 2009

"There's too many things I haven't done yet, there's too many sunsets I haven't seen."

[title: "Many the Miles," Sara Bareilles]

So, although it was two weeks ago, the trip to Florida was great. I was able to properly maneuver my way around three airports, found ways to keep myself occupied for several hours in said airports, and didn't wreck the rental car. Score.

It was hotter than expected, and the humidity is something fierce in Central Florida. Ditto for summer rains. However, I was pleasantly surprised to pick up a copy of the newspaper my first night. It is very nice and I can see why it's held in such high regard in the community, especially to have such a high circulation.

I met several reporters, editors, and the publisher throughout my two days, and I enjoyed that. Although sometimes I feel funny for not having as many questions as I should (for the record, I did ask plenty of questions!), it is always interesting to me to hear of how people get to where they are, and to know a little bit more about people who could potentially be my bosses.

I even got to see Allison, my D.C. roommate, during a brief drop by Disney World's Downtown Disney. It was nice to catch up.

The title of my song actually came from an interesting moment on the return trip. I was sitting on the plane, thinking. Am I going to get the job? How is my life going to change? Will I be happy there? You know, all of the major life move questions.

I glanced out of my window (I always get the window seat if I can help it) and saw the sunset. Instantly the song popped into my head. I couldn't help but smile and feel God was winking at me.

The song has sort of been an anthem I've clung to post-graduation. It's about moving out into the world, saying goodbyes, but also maintaining strong ties to loved ones. The line, my title, got to me the first time I heard it. There are so many things I want to do, so many things I want to see and accomplish.

On good days, the world is my oyster. On bad days, I struggle with feeling stuck and wistful at the world speeding around me and slightly jealous of my friends' adventures around the world.

This felt like God was saying, "I know you have dreams, and trust me, you will have adventures."

I'm feeling better now about the questions...even if I don't get the job. I guess you just have to have faith and trust that God has something for you...even if you have no idea what that is.

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